one of my favorite billy joel albums. who am i kidding, i love all billy joel albums.
however, my point is all i wanna do is sleep.
i haven't talked a lot about this pain i've had. since march, my left wrist has been bothering me. so have my hips, but not too badly. i told my doctor and he said my hips could be caused by my weight and gave me some basic exercises to do for my wrist. which i did, and they didn't seem to help. i figured it was a touch of carpal tunnel. i decided to wait and see after i quit my desk job.
so i quit my desk job in june and spent a couple of weeks babying my wrist. it didn't get any better, but my knuckles really, really started bothering me. then one day in july i woke up and my right wrist and knuckles hurt. i called an orthopedist and went for my appointment.
i wrote all my info down and whatever they wanted and waited two damn hours to be seen. the doctor palpitated my left wrist, wrote off my right wrist, and ordered xrays for my left wrist. he said it looked fine. he was ready to send me off when i asked about my knuckles... which he had completely forgotten about. after ordering another round of xrays for my knuckles, he told me there was nothing wrong with them either. he said that there was nothing wrong with my bones and told me to wear a wrist brace for a month and see if it got any better.
i wore it, i babied my left wrist. i ended up putting another brace on my right wrist because it hurt so much. after a month went by, everything hurt more. i cancelled the followup with the orthopedist (saving my $50 copay) and called a rheumatologist. they fit me in a week later - which was this past tuesday.
i loved the rheumatologist. she asked so many questions about my medical history. she asked so many questions about my pain and where it hurt and how much it hurt - like none of which the ortho asked about. we even talked a bit about how broken the healthcare system was. she then popped me up on the table and poked at numerous spots on my body: my neck and throat, upper chest, hips, back, knees, wrists. i had tender spots that i hadn't even noticed. but i was very upfront about what hurts and how much it hurts: wrists, knuckles, hips, upper back, lower back, and how fucking exhausted i am all the time. she told me it definitely wasn't rheumatoid arthritis because the fingertip knuckle is never involved in RA (i was thinking it was RA until that point). she mentioned something as simple as a vitamin or hormone deficiency could cause joint pain like this, or something like psoriatic arthritis. no one in my family has been diagnosed with psoriasis though, so not sure how likely that is.
she ordered a bucket of blood tests (and they were able to draw blood in the office, which i love) and scheduled a followup in two weeks. i've looked at some of the symptoms of psoriatic arthritis and fibromyalgia, and both look like possibilities. i just can't wait to find out what's wrong with me so that we can treat it and i can stop wanting to sleep all the damn time.
today, my shoulders and upper back, wrists, hips, and knuckles still hurt. but in addition, the rest of my back, thighs, and knees are really bad today. i have no idea what is going on, but i really need it to stop. i called out of work this afternoon because i just can't do it. i can't get comfortable. i ate a bunch of advil earlier today and am considering breaking out my stockpile of painkillers because omfg this hurts.
anyway, sorry for the pity party. i just am at the end my rope today. and i have to sit in school all day tomorrow so, there's that.